I can’t blog every night like I used to, it’s getting too stressful, and I’m not really doing anything but writing just to write. I set the schedule myself in order to have something that was totally mine that I had to participate in instead of doing other people’s work and then passing out at night without making anything I cared about. But that was years ago at this point.
Everything has changed. Now the blog is getting in the way of me taking care of myself after full days and weeks of doing my work that I love on my own terms. I really don’t know what this means going forward. When I wrote about how the blog may change last week, I had this idea that I would be writing my posts in the mobile app more and more, that I’d write them at erratic times, but still set them to publish at 5am EST like always, but I’m not sure I can do that.
Every minute of every day is taken up with my entire concentration. I know it won’t always be like this, but all my creative energy is going towards work. I’m not sure I have the capacity to keep this going along with everything else.
I wonder if it’s healthy to stop blogging or change my schedule during such a stressful time. I’m worried I might be circling the wagons around my over-work when that’s the opposite of what I should do.
I seem to have trouble posting something just to post it. I’m over-editing a blog that used to be completely casual. It’s like I can’t turn it off. I’d like it to go back to when it was fun and a stress vent, I have a feeling everybody reading it would too. But can it be done? I guess we’ll have to figure it out.